Ever Been Mad at God?

Alright friends, as you can see, I have already posed the question; Ever been mad at God?  Well, I have and I know some of you are thinking, oh boy he's playing with fire.  Look at it like this, their are no perfect relationships. ( If you think their are than I've got some ocean front property for sale in Arizona: George Strait reference for my wife.)  Anyway what is the one thing God wants from us most.  That's right, a relationship with him.  It's not going to be smooth and their will be some rough patches.  I know he will be with me in the valley.  But honestly,  how long is this valley?   This is the thing, I (with God's Help) beat cancer 2 years ago.  I am so grateful to still be alive, but you see it's not the cancer that usually comes back to kill you, it's the Graph vs. Host disease.  I've got GVHD in my lungs and now my liver.  I know some of you are thinking would you like some cheese and crackers with your whining.  I like to think I don't complain a lot but sometimes you just have to get things off your chest.

It's not only hard on me but it's hard on Kelli and Morgan.  I just want to be normal again.  I know you are probably saying, well he should just be happy to have this time with them.  I am happy for this time but I want more with them. I want to coach Morgan's soccer team and I want to look at my wife and know that somewhere in the back of her mind she's not waiting for the other shoe to drop. I just want to be normal.  Why is my family going through this, and listen I know everybody is going through something, I just get a chance to blog it.

So we get mad at God, and we ask Why?  Then what,  Do we wait?  Do we stop talking to him and ignoring him? (like most relationships)  Maybe we go back for more.  Somebody told me once that our society likes to microwave but God likes to bake things in his own time.  Guess what, I'm an impatient person.  Who knows maybe its God's way of being funny,

You see the way I figure it, I'm going to dissappoint God from time to to time and he's going to make me angry from time to time. That's how a relationship works, but we don't give up on each other, we stick together and work things out. I know he has everything under control but if he could send me down a little GPS system to know where he's taking me and my family, I would really appreciate it.